A Thousand Miles

Saturday, December 27, 2008

"I Don't Want To Be Just Friends!" @ 4:40 PM

I Don't Want To Be Just Friends!

At 6.29pm, I sent her a message asking what she is doing right now. She replied and stated that she's in her grandad's house chatting with her long unseen cousin. Before that, we were talking about a horror game called hotel626, which she introduced to me. I lied to her that I was shocked and my heart pop out, so I replied to her to give me her heart in return. She replied and said that her heart is still vacant, can't find owner yet. I asked if I can do anything to buy her heart away and requested her to stat all the Terms&Conditions and would try my best to fulfill it.

On that moment, I was so anticipated for her answer, it's like proposing or asking her whether we could be together. I prayed in my heart that she'll agree being with me. But I was wrong, cause in the end, it ended up as pain and dissapointment. She said, "mayb wait til we get to know each other more..k? =]". On the other message she stated, "Hey..to tel de truth..i lik it lik this!!must i hv to be ur gf..?i lik it to be lik this much more better..". When I read it, my heart shattered into million pieces, it felts like I was stabed right through and deep inside my heart. My eyes were watery but my tears just won't drop, I can feel the sadness within my heart but I'm trying my best to stay strong. I should've know that this would be the ending.

To her, I was just a "very good fren" which makes her feel more comfortable with. It was always sweet to see her messages and I enjoyed the complicated feelings while waiting her messages. I always wished that I could officially be with her. Now I'm just making myself more dissapointments.

Aiming for the sky, felling to the ground.

Can't it be another way not just to be friends?!