Crapp, it's my 100th post now. I always never finish posting what I started. Probably there's just too much than feelings to express. Doesn't matter, cuz this 100th post, will be probably my last post for 2009. I'll be having great times for starting New Year celebration and tomorrow =p


There's this thing here below, some of what I've learnt and understood from different and various peoples, and lecturers even fine graduates. When all pieces combine together, this is how things is. But for this, it's only one topic which is inter-related.
Erm..if you don't like it, it's okay. Take it in mind if you think it's right. Forget it if you think it's not right for you. Not everything is right =)


I've spent most time of my life thinking, dreaming, imagining things far beyond my capabilities. Probably due to my age? But I did some of it which I was capable like exploring the outside places by riding my bicycle out to more than 50km when I was at the age of 11 without letting my parents know. I had always been a thinker, mostly bout life stuffs. Some people said it was good, because you are clear what is around you and the meaning living it and not just because you had to. It's better than those who hadn't thought of it and live blank until he dies and still doesn't know what he/she has lived for throughout. You need to be clear and know what you want and see through the future of you, the steps after the steps. Because in end, if you're not clear of what you've wanted and not thought about it, you will never be satisfied of how or who or what you have. You will keep on pursueing things in your life one and another and never be satisfied living it.

About studies and careers. Do you know why do we study? Had you ever asked yourself this question? Is it because your parents told you so? Or was it because you see all your friends was doing it so you should too? For us, highschools, the reason you study and at the end of what you get is a SPM certificate. This certificate, means nothing. Well, maybe yes - if you haven't got a job or went further study yet. Let's say that you've got straight As' for it. Your parents are most likely proud, your friends are proud, your relatives are proud. But how long can this shine moment last? How long do you want to keep showing off your grades you had worked so hard on for time and years? Not much of a use, huh? and is only temporary in our lifeline.
When you get a job out there, would your boss give a care about it? Would your certificates bring you to promotions and be praised for good work? No. When you go out there, what matters then and that brings you to stable-happy career, workmates, incomes and promotions is then your character, personality and how hardworking you are. The innovation and creative mind to explore and the dare to take risks. Those certificates you had is just to get you to something you qualified to be in. Etc, cert. of Bachelor of BA - qualified to be hired as a senior executive in a company with paycheque RM3500. It doesn't promise you much and what's next is all up to yourself.

People said, it's better that we study smart rather than study hard. You can see most of those who're in good classes all so worry bout their grades and all they did was just studying, competition among themselves, influences by friends. You could ask some of them what's their ambition or what do they want after graduating. Most will reply that they don't know and telling that there's plenty of time to think or even some may say will think bout it when the major exam's over. When they come out to the society, there'll be books no more. There will be no one pushing their backs and when they came to realise, they had to start to be independent. Most would probably don't know what to do for their next step and blur all over.
High school life and university life ain't meant to be like this. It's only once in lifetime where you could have great times spent and general experiences.
You wouldn't want to tell your grandson in the future of memories you had about in highschool was how you study hard and learned about -Bio,Chem,AddMaths??

Get-A-Life-Nerds =x lol...jkjk~




Darn, I've been so missing someone lately. Seriously~ ><> sweet =)

It makes you wondering if u meant anything for him/her, thinking if he/she ever cares about u.
Rushing to the phone once it rings hoping that it's him/her. Looking out of the window hoping that he/she will surprise u by appearing downstairs. Sitting in front of the television but thinking of him/her, missing the final episode of your favourite show. Laying on your bed, thinking of the last time u were out together. Thinking of how nice it will be to sit under the stars again, talking about everything, your dreams, plans, future. Logging on to the internet hoping to see him/her online. When u realise that he/she isn't online and did not return your mail, u will start worrying if he/she is okay.

Missing someone is a way of growing up i guess. It exposes u to loneliness. It teaches u how to cope with being lonely and let u know that there is actually a feeling known as emptiness. Sometimes it feels good to miss someone. U know that u really care and u indulge in the feeling of loving/caring for him/her. But missing someone and not knowing if he/she is feeling the same is terrible. U feel as if u are being left alone. So if u miss someone, tell him/her and let them know. At the same time, ask if they miss u. Don't let the feeling of missing someone become jealousy or paranoia. If u are the one being missed and u know it, let the other party know. If u miss him/her too, tell them. Don't let them wait. And if the one you are missing can't/doesn't reciprocate, MOVE ON then!!

Life is short, so instead of being hurt & waiting around-Move on!!
Believe in Urself & life, there's someone out there waiting to miss U too !!! =D

MooOooOOooDy~

Very lazy to post blog. Sigh* ..zz..


MooOooOooDy~

So much you've understood. You wished to share, but you can't as this - you must experience, learn and explore by self to truely understand. Everyone hold's the key and leads how the life he is to live. There is no right or wrong in living it.


"And how do you benefit if you gain the whole world? But lose your own soul in the process? Is anything worth more than your soul?"


GosH! How I missed her! ><
It was last Monday, I remember. It was the day where my church gonna have our first day of caroling. Which is at night. So I'll be dead bored the whole afternoon.
And, I wouldn't want that.. =x
So I decided to go Leisure Mall then. To buy some clothes, register the singing competition or just walk around, relax a bit.




WooOoOooHooO~!

MeRRy Chr1stmas t0 3veEy0n3!!


Again, the end of year is coming to it's end. And everything will not be the same, a new change, a new beginning.
Let's move on forward! Even that sometimes there's things you can't have or failed in. Just remember and be reminded of things you have in presence and of things which you once had =)
Remember the purpose of life.

Going out Leisure Mall later at 3pm. Buy few presents, buy new clothes, buy my favourite musics and walk-walk around anywhere =p
Will reach church at 6.30pm for caroling. Hmm...this gotta be fun ^^
Sigh* I could hear my neighbour's daughter playing the piano. She's very good at it. It seems like it's giving me a feeling of contained =x
Anyway, gotta watch the movie I downloaded a while ago. Byee!


Love God, Love Jesus, Love You =D
I like this song even though I have only heard it a few times. There will be a singing competition next year on January. The song that I've chose to sing based on the list in this, 可不可以爱我. The singer, Afalean Lu is from Taiwan. This will be my audition song, only have to sing the chorus part. I'll be heading to Leisure Mall tomorrow to buy some Christmas presents and to register myself for the competition which is with Rm35 of registration fees -.-
Haha~wish me luck, Jan 10 is the day!


Enjoy the music =)





Here is the lyric with translation :


为什麽如此的安静 Why is it so quiet?
wei shen me ru ci de an jing
为什麽明明想靠近 却还在迟疑 Why do (I) want to be near (you) but hesitate?
wei shen me ming ming xiang kao jin, que hai zai chi yi
努力的我保持镇定 努力开拓话题 I try hard to keep calm, to speak out
nu li de wo bao chi zhen ding nu li kai puo hua ti
最後却溃不成军 But in the end I'm utterly defeated
zui hou que kui bu cheng jun

为什麽如此的美丽 Why does this beauty
wei shen me ru ci de mei li
深刻的烙在心里 最温柔的酷刑 That drops deep in my heart such gentle torture
shen ke de luo zai xin li zui wen rou de ku xing
每一天无法不想你 I can't help but think of you everyday
mei yi tian wu fa bu xiang ni
连闭上眼睛 怎麽都是你 Even when I close my eyes I see you
lian bi shang yan jing zen me dou shi ni

a:
你可不可以爱我 Please love me
ni ke bu ke yi ai wo
可不可以想我 Please think of me
ke bu ke yi xiang wo
虽然我对自己没有一点的把握 Even though I don't have a firm grasp of myself
sui ran wo dui zi ji mei you yi dian de ba wo
别害怕我难过 Don't be afraid of hurting me,
bie hai pa wo nan guo
告诉我你真实的感受 tell your true feelings
gao su wo ni zhen shi de gan shou
至少忐忑能告一段落 At least then I can move on
zhi shao tan te neng gao yi duan luo

你可不可以爱我 Please love me
ni ke bu ke yi ai wo
可不可以看我 Please look at me
ke bu ke yi kan wo
反正看或不看我依然失魂落魄 Come what may I'll be lost either way
fan zheng kan huo bu kan wo yi ran shi hun luo puo
成全不是美德 Becoming whole is not a virtue
chen quan bu shi mei de
拒绝也不是一种罪过 Rejection is not a sin
ju jue ye bu shi yi zhong zui guo
你能给我 You can give me
ni neng gei wo
快乐还是寂寞 happiness or loneliness
kuai le hai shi ji mo

为什麽如此的美丽 Why does this beauty
wei shen me ru ci de mei li
深刻的烙在心里 最温柔的酷刑 That drops deep in my heart such gentle torture
shen ke de luo zai xin li zui wen rou de ku xing
每一天无法不想你 I can't help but think of you everyday
mei yi tian wu fa bu xiang ni
连闭上眼睛 怎麽都是你 Even when I close my eyes I see you
lian bi shang yan jing zen me dou shi ni

repeat a:

你可不可以爱我 Please love me
ni ke bu ke yi ai wo
可不可以看我 Please look at me
ke bu ke yi kan wo
反正看或不看我依然失魂落魄 Come what may I'll be lost either way
fan zheng kan huo bu kan wo yi ran shi hun luo puo
成全不是美德 Becoming whole is not a virtue
chen quan bu shi mei de
拒绝也不是一种罪过 Rejection is not a sin
ju jue ye bu shi yi zhong zui guo
你能给我 You can give me
ni neng gei wo
快乐还是寂寞 happiness or loneliness
kuai le hai shi ji mo

想念燃烧个不停 I miss you with an incessant burning
xiang nian ran shao ge bu ting
我快置身灰烬 Almost all that remains of me is ash
wo kuai zhi shen hui jin
你是我的呼吸 You are my breath
ni shi wo de hu xi

repeat a:

依然失魂落魄 I'll be lost either way
yi ran shi hun luo po
成全不是美德 Becoming whole is not a virtue
chen quan bu shi mei de
拒绝也不是一种罪过 Rejection is not a sin
ju jue ye bu shi yi zhong zui guo
你能给我 You can give me
ni neng gei wo
快乐还是寂寞 happiness or loneliness
kuai le hai shi ji mo
Erm...nothin to do..so i a bit 'wu liao' come here to write something a few.
3am it is, tired and yawning. Saying my last goodbye to my dearest computer..
There's this thing in my mind, I can't knock it off. Maybe I'm really too into - .
I just can't pretend as if it's nothing. I know how I felt eversince. Maybe I should take action, or no..wait till the time is right. Patience I must and stay calm. Pray to God.
I wonder...I kept wonder.. If I had the chance to say what I wanted to say to - next week on the 26th, which is my church's BBQ party?

Invitation has been sent,
fate it is now depend.
Lord I pray for Your very bless,
as - is all my rest.

I will take this as my test,
I will not run, startled or cast.
And now that my time is getting less,
I will try my best,
and let - be impressed.


Lols, suddenly wrote a crappy poem. Anyway, tomorrow's camp dy. Must wake up very early. Lately during these few days, I've been sleeping till noon! So..I never had breakfasts for few days already. My sleep cycle has changed -.- I always sleeps at 4am+! Help~! T__T

This camp will last for 4days 3night. Must accept the fact that last year's camp is much nicer than this year geh coz went to Pulau Pangkor! But this year..haiz, full jor worr... ='(
Nvm laa...I'm already happy if we could all strenghthen the relationships between members =)
Sigh* Awards Day coming. It does not matter anymore if I could become NCO or not, as my faith has started fading as time has passed since that very incident. Will I ever feel the same as how I felt this year for the next year? I'm sure everything will soon to change and that nothing much would left to be the same.

Life goes on and on, time clicks and never stops and everything moves forward along.
So should I..
Even it is hard to accept some things. But -
So should I...

I'd to say. This was the best camp of my entire life so far. It has impacted me so much. And I believe it impacted all others the same as well. It's not an ordinary camp, or some stupid training camps. It made us realise what's the worth, purpose and meaning of life. Sigh* I lost too much tears throughout the camp. T__T
Pastor Joshua is just too good..sigh*

In this camp, I started out as a fresh graduate of a bachelor's degree. My community's name is MoonLight. Started working as a manager for the casino. Btw, I was even the 1st who got in jail -.- coz i never bring my id card! @@


EVERYONE! Pls remember this guy! This guy arr..when I kena lock up in jail, I yelled for his help. And what he was doing was trying to sell his things and chatting with girls summore. When I come out, he said he no money to bail me. Walao! I got 10,000cash weh~! N that there's no way he don't know I at jail coz they made a loud announcement ><

I'd always wanted to further study till doctorate level. So I kept studying and studying even at midnight! But on day2, I failed twice! That examiner really......zz So my age increases by 6, each time 3years. Then there's this lifecheck at every end of the round. Everyone's age will increase minimum by 5! During that round, I kept focussing on studies till that I forgot to buy food and a place to live for myself. Thus, i had and extra of 2dices when I had already 2. So it means I'd 4 now. If any of the dices thrown had the same number. Then - you will get something bad. I think I got a frickin bad luck! I can't believe my fate. -.- I got same number of 3s' and 5s'! My age increased like...woAH! Which then made me the eldest FreeCity citizen of all. I was so down, so sad, so desperate and had no mood left to continue playing. I thought of everything, of who to marry, when to marry, my carreers all according to expected age. Suddenly my age was like..hell no. My community friends also...haizz The girl I wanted to marry also younger than me 10years+

But I never give up la. I decided to stop pursueing my studies, coz I thought to myself, why not just work and live a simple life? So I work for Nicholas then at an auto service as a manager as well. I invited Lois who works beside at the National Bank, someone which I wanted to marry from the beginning to join my working place which pays higher. She agreed and we managed the place together. Few times I carpool her and oh..I even gave my car to her then. =X

Nicholas knew I liked her. So when I went to buy my needs. He told her that I wanted to marry her. LOL! So when I came back to work, she seems diligently silent looking. Nic told me what he told her. I was like...damn you~ At first I thought she doesn't like me because she seems like avoiding me or x communicating with me. Pretty sad T_T

The next round, I was fired by Nicholas and there's another round where I was fired by Joshua Ng -.- (stupid)

That was the round when I was planning to marry coz my age was getting old. KianYang helped me to ask the another girl which was also at my community. She agreed since she had no one. Earlier, her age was also like Lois, 10years younger than me. After a round of her bad luck, she became old and just 2years younger than me. So I think marrying with her would be right. She's not bad after all. Btw, on that time, I was the one of some rich peoples and had a high prestige points. Those who had higher prestige points than another can cut lines xD

So good weh...keep cutting lines...but abit paiseh also~ ^^

So...I proposed her for marriage and she agreed. We quickly rushed and prepare marrying procedure which needed a pastor and some witnesses. We also took a marriage photo at the photo studio. Not bad weh =)



And I think there's this thing that i must tell, we married in front of my wife's reality boyfren leh!! I was like...shyt* Will he not happy with me leh? Misunderstood or anything leh..? Got a bit sweat in the process. But thank God, he's not those kind of person laa ... phew~ x_X

Then, I changed my job and worked there as a manager. My wife's name was Joyce, she works at the Supermarket. We helped out each other, she took every of the most expensive merchandise and gave it to me. I had quite a lot of money and I bought down a C-class house and had a C-class car after I gave my D-class car to Lois.

Alright - I admit, there's too much to tell. I'll summarize the ending.

In the end, I had 4houses. 2A-class, 1C-class and 1Eclass. I had 1C-class car (the most expensive was only C). I and Joyce had a son, she named him Daniel. My prestige points was the highest among all, the highest after my wife was only 20 which was likely half of mine. Husband & wife shares the same benefits. Which means if I increase prestige points by 10, hers increases the same. I was also the richest of all and had 15,000 during the last round. I played fair and did not steal, all I earned it by using skills, business tradings and different techniques. There were thieves and cheaters around weh..they sell fake merchandisers -.- I was also the most unloyal worker as I changed my job 5times! I work as a manager for the casino at first, then salesman for auto service which later promoted to manager, manager of photo studio, manager of supplier and lastly a secretary for National Bank. My age was 64, and my wife's were 62.

Lastly, Nicholas told me that she asked Lois why isn't she married. She said no one proposed to her. Actually, she was a little shy when Nicholas told her I wanted to marry her. That is why she did not really talk to me that time! Was so regret. Sorry, Lois. =x nvm laa..

This is the part where we prayed and worship God together during the nights~ T___T
Anyway, ending I can't tell.. We all made a promise and we shall keep it =)


Btw, this is Lois. Eventhough that everything's over now.
But I still wish that we could know each other more as time comes.


It's just so beautiful, thanks to all the volunteers, pastors, brothers and the creaters of LIFEgame!



L1FEgame INFOs' =)

LiFEgame is a creative simulation game of life that seeks to provide an environment for participants to discover God's purposes for their lives in this world. A "make-believe" world (a city) is set up in a camp or retreat environment where participants are given the opportunity to live out their whole lives however they wish. Starting at age 15, they begin to pursue their dream, get an education, find a job, buy their first car, purchase a house, get married, raise a family, and climb the ladder of success. Every hour they will age 5 years and they have to take care of their personal needs like food, clothing, health, etc. Like in real-life they may face health problems, accidents, fines, or even death as a result. No one knows how long they will live. Some might die prematurely while others may retire at a ripe old age before they meet their creator face to face.
LiFEgame is about living life and that's where the reality of the real world sets in. Eventually each participant question, "What's the point of life?" and that, is the whole point of the LiFEgame -an opportunity to discover God's purpose for living. Coupled with PurposeDriven Life workshops, small-group discussions, dramas, mimes, songs, videos, & messages, the LiFEgame challenges participants to make a commitment to Christ. On average, about 80% of the participants made one of these life-changing decisions. As of December 2007, some 32 LiFEgame camps have been conducted, impacting more than 5,500 lives for Christ ranging from youths to retirees. Are you ready for the impact?


For anyone's out there. I pursue you to join this camp. You can only join this once in your lifetime. Truely amazing ^^


And here's the website LifeImpact Ministries
Aww... so many nice things happened around me yet can't post on blog to share. I still don't have internet yet. Argggh! There's this singing competition last Sunday. I joined and sang one of Jay Chou's song called 'Shi Jie Mo Ri' or more known as The End Of The World. Quite a nice song.
I did practice singing it. And nevertheless, I know my weaknesses, which is I'm not good in chinese and can't pronounce that well either. So, I did a little homework on it and manage to overcome it and memorise the whole lyrics as well. I wouldn't want to be disgraced. xD
I like singing, got kind of a lot of experiences which i kept to myself, thought to like how to use your suprano tones and alto tones.
Singing loud which comes from your stomach and controling it by throat.

Very happy that in the end I've won the singing competition.
Glad that my efforts are not in vain. =)
Will post the photos next time. At cc :X
Good Experience Anyway.

Name: Jason Thow [JT ]
Age: 20 years old
Date of Birth: January 21st 1993
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