A Thousand Miles

Sunday, March 15, 2009

"14-15 March 2009 - Once Together, Forever Remembers" @ 4:34 PM

Time 7.30am, I woke up.. Opened my eyes, blurred.. Thinking about her again, wondering how things will be like.. Things like how will she look, her face, body, her life, her family... Just can't keep her out of my mind. So anticipated! Suddenly, I heard some water drippling sounds, oh! It was raining! How are they going to play badminton later? The field gotta be wet.. But I already know, that the game definitely been canceled. Yet, I still pretend I don't know, even I know it'll be dissapointment, but to see her, I'm willing to give it all out.
I woke up my mom, she drove me there, I forgot to take pocket money! =.=" Luckily I brought 2ringgit =D Usually I treat her for foods and drinks, but this time, don't know how le..aiks!

Time was around 9am, as I'm getting closer, I'm feeling more and more nervous to see her. I'm sure that she've been more beautiful than before. It seems true, her beautiful eyes I stared at, her smooth hair,her hands, her toes and every single detail bit of her, I studied. I'm so glad and amazed by all that she've been through. The ups and downs, we shared. I wished, she was mine..

Throughout the day, it was quite boring, I never really talk much, she was with her niece, I don't know her -.- She brought me to her house, a couple moments later, we went to the restaurant and had some drinks. We had a little chat. She treat me for the drinks today =X Haha.. Actually, we're not really that close at that moment, coz it's been so long since we last met. When my dad reached, I told her I have to go. She asked me if I need her to send me out, I said, "sure, if it's ok to you". I wished I had more time.

It was quite similar too of what happened today. Just that I lost her.. She went away while I was chatting with some of my old friends. I was so surprised. I kept running and running searching for her, keep hoping that she's just wondering around somewhere near. I ran to her to the field and ran back to the restaurant and back straight to her house again. And heard shutting sounds of the door. By that time, I knew I was too late. I'm really sorry to her. Kept her waiting, ignored her. Definitely she felt boring coz today, she accompanied me at the restaurant for about an hour and half.

I 'm so sad and regret. To tell the truth, I love her. I even thought that she might been kidnapped. There's so many times I want to express my feelings towards her, but I just can't do it. I'm so afraid of getting rejected and we might never be friends again! I wouldn't want to loose her. I feel so helpless.. She means a world to me, I just hope that fate, would bring us together! What If - I had a moment..

To Chia Yee Von : If I had a chance, I wished to have you with me for everyday's breakfast, wished to hear your voice, see you smile, play with you and have you accompany by my side.
I know I may not be like your ex-boyfriend. I know I have a lot of things that I still don't know about since after all these years. But I never forget you. You are my one and only. The days we've once been through, eventhough it is short, but to me, I remember it all, every single moment-lies deep-in my heart.

ღღYeeVon....我爱你!ღღ