A Thousand Miles

Thursday, August 6, 2009

"Back!" @ 12:12 AM

I'm back! My computer is finally fixed. Next week is exam. It seems like it doesn't even exist. I'm so lazy nowadays. I need to change. There's this one person, she says I can't control my temper. I guess she's right. I will work more at that perspect. I see my seniors, my juniors, they we're studying like cows chewing grass (coz they chew twice and keeps on chewing) , I felt humble, useless. As it's because I were doing nothing, just go for tuition and that's my study for the day after school. My results were dropping, my add maths keep failing. When will I be able to wake up?

Latest Developments ;

I falled in love with someone who already turns me down though I never tell her yet, because
that I'm a human, I can feel that she's sending me a message stating that I don't fit.

I can't concentrate especially in studies, my mind's flying around. I wonder when it will come back to it's head. It misses it. =(

I am the chairman for the BB's squad combination camp. Had so many things to plan, actually, when I see it broader, it's nothing really. Just a few problems, but just can't find the solution, which requires time, time which causes me all this time, headaches and building castles in the air. Will the castle be shaped?

I've establised a Band Club Society in SMK Perimbun the week when I shifted back. Approved by the head of co-curriculum teacher. So I'll have no worries of not having a president position for Form5. My club's teacher advisor had helped me to apply for few instruments. Now still waiting for it. I wonder when.

Church's 40th Annivarsary Dinner is coming. I got involved in 3 out of 4 performances. Which is Band Performance, Singing Worship Songs and Sketch. Gosh, I'm thankful that I was blessed by God for my inner strength which allows me to go on with the spirit in me. I sold 6tickets, I asked more than 100ppl. Yet the result was dissapointing. So many "I'll see first" people. Zzz!

Throughout this year, I'd seen a lot of things, experienced many things. I'm wishing to improve myself. Whether it's the leadership part or social part. Aspects like this, can't be seen from the outside but to understand. So for those crappers, do not underestimate anyone from his/her appearance, he may be 10times better and more successful than you. I will never give up my dreams. I know, I will someday, realised it.

Manage my IQ-EQ-SQ. Usually people who has high IQ has lower EQ and SQ. High IQ people are the least amount compared to lower IQ ones. Lower IQ usually has higher SQ but lower EQ due to lower IQ. And for those who has higher SQ, he/she probably will have a normal rate of IQ and slightly higher EQ. I will try my best to improve my IQ and maintain my SQ. My EQ is the problem for now. As I am easily angered and easily sad and sometimes emo. Not stable. =(

PS; Now's 12.40midnight. Have to off. no time. SleeP! =]