A Thousand Miles

Friday, January 15, 2010

"The feeling right now." @ 3:44 PM

Don't know what to type for now. Feel all so tired and down and things seems slow and time seems fast. Been spending a few hours sitting in front of the computer. And I hate it. It keeps distract me. I want it to be away, but my mind was set on it. Oh well, I'm addicted I guess. Foolish me. Singing each time I reached home. Kept on practicing and adjusting for the finest tones. Could sing higher keys now, but somehow could feel a little sorethroat. Too much practice I guess.

Blogs, is a very good creation. Benefits a lot to many people, and many liked it. I've been viewing plenty of blogs just now. There's this button on top of the blog which allows you to click 'next blog'. It's been quite some time since I last visit random blogs around the world and thought it might be interesting, and it still is. Different people, different genres and different stories were posted each blogs I bumped to. From fashion, entertainments, families, love, books and kids to idols and which includes places from China, Hong Kong, Europe, Africa, Singapore to the many places of USA. I see different opinion, different tastes of colour and their anxiety towards different things makes me feel as if the world is beautiful and a little touching. All the nice pictures posted really entertained me and some, loving too. I see how they overcome their daily routines, how they get on life. Some mentioned about their thoughts of life, some about religion, some marriage and family while some were stories of their long amazing vacations ^^
Geez...I love it x)

By the way, I've been thinking bout this matter for quite some time and I think it's time to let go now and quit and move on forward. It's about BB a.k.a. Boys Bridgade. I've thought of this planning of leaving decision since last year as because I'm form5 now, should focus more on my studies and not get too much distraction. I wished I was supernatural, so I could do 3things or perhaps 10things at once. But I know I can't and I don't want to even that I could. What for getting myself so stress and tired of? Doesn't worth it. Just wana get as much scholarships as possible and go to a good university to further my studies and maybe someday become a rich man.. x)

Right, I'm leaving BB due to several reasons.
1. My passion towards BB has faded.
2. I want to be free on Saturdays as I have piano and guitar classes on.
3. I need some time out since I'm studying 5days/week, which means I want my weekends free!
4. Don't want to involve too much and get distracted.
5. Dislike drill.
6. Dislike outdoor activites especially if I'm doing it every week.
7. Did not promote to L/Cpl.
8. Want some private time alone with family.
9. Know what I really wanted and this marks the 1st change.
10. Parents agree and supported.

Tomorrow is my last day going to BB and Sundays will be my last day for band practice. Maybe I won't be going to band practice. I mean just maybe coz going out with family. And really dislike the practice timing.
"jor dang sai!" =x
They haven't know about it yet as I didin't tell anyone about it. I knew there is no one I could really trust besides myself. This isn't a drastic decision and I need not a discussion because this is about me and not some other. Advises I will listen but it will not change the result.
Anyway, the hard part isn't saying goodbye but facing them when they knew you were about about to leave. Afraid some might have negative thoughts and opinions or telling me not to leave.
This is what annoys me most. I'll feel better if they care less and don't really put the pressure on it. I'm form5 and I'm 17. I get to decide.

There's a male teacher, he is quite old now.
I remember how he mentioned that, "life is an evolution".
I agreed and I think this is another small wave of it.

Yawn~feeling tired. Having tuition later, and I haven't bath yet -.-
Maybe I should go now as fast as possible before the computer suck me back.
Then, get a short nap and hoop back to studies..bB