A Thousand Miles

Tuesday, March 15, 2011

"A Dense Day." @ 7:17 PM

Finished my 4moral assignments last night along with the main assignment for today(els). Internet helps out a lot, so things got done rather smoothly but still took time to absorb as much while duplicating some of the important facts. MochiGirl on Friday, 11th proposed an idea to raise money to help out the Japanese which is currently in a severe situation right now due to the earthquake which brought tsunami along and to make matters worse, a nuclear power plant explosion occurred. It was posted on the facebook group site i found, the response was well-received and many was interested in it. Few ideas were exchanged during their discussions. Decided to help out, because.. i liked japan XD and am on savings plan so i could travel there by next year or so during term breaks. Which is still quite far from reach. Anyway, i really thought of helping her though I don't know much about MochiGirl since we're still new. Did made several approaches by chatting from time to time with her via fb, so far she's cool.

Yesterday, I decided to take an initiative and accompanied her along. We planned to meet up near the OldTown at 8.30am to meet Mr.Raja Singham to propose the charity event today. Turns out both of us were early, we were there at 8.00am. I slept for freakin' 3hours for the night! Went through the 4 storeys of the building in search of the cafeteria. =_=
We can't seem to find it and so we waited at the main office then. We sat down, she dotted down her els essay from her printed work diligently and we waited for his arrival. Was then told that he wont be there when she asked one of the workers after some loooong time later. Went for breakfast at an indian restaurant then. After, we rushed to our class as the time's over 10am and on our way towards near the building, Mr. Raja Singham just arrive too; got out from his ride and then she goes proposing the idea of hers. I was uneagered.

Feels dumb today, stupid fatigue that caught me. One of the reasons not doing anything audacious today. Kinda of disappointed. Didnt communicate much, and time passed by insignificantly including when we're at the office and the indian restaurant. She was so focussed, was worried that i might hinder and slow down her work. (mmm)
Wanted to help out, wanted to step up and play a role and at the end of the class as well when the election thing and after - the committee discussion & suggestion sessions they had. It was frustrating. My body physiologically going against my will! And.., for the leading election of the charity project, i'd actually prefer her to lead, its a shame that the votes differs by a few which would've make a lot difference.
(mayb i should try raise my 2hands and feets as well? *laughs*)

I think she could do well since she had put in many thoughts into this than the others who just got to know later. She shows certain quality traits, and this event's a kind of major thing too. Anyway I don't want someone got chosen due to his/her popularity preference gained from gigs n jokes impressions. Prefer things to be taken in a more thoughtful manner, understanding the intentions; have certain qualities, capability and leaderships.
Wished my conditions was better today so i could voice out as well, I was like a half-dead person..each time when i'm worn-out, i become reluctant and everything would turn out tiring and cumbersome, even talking itself! One of my weakness ..

During the discussion, was pretty irritated with the many craps/jokes and all. Wasted a lot of time, many left and few were there stil. Many points and many propositions i wanted to share in my mind then. I wished could help lead .. feel so bad about it =(
It's not bout her or the event, but mostly of my own expectations which i fail to comply. Definitely, must get a better sleep today!! pump out for tomorrow and everything else. Hmm..There is a lot going through my mind right now, Msian Study exam's coming..ahhH! Things seems to come out pretty random, go recharge! ><

Anyway, gtg.
Hope things goes well. :)